kind of my, mine, home

Screenshot from Wikipedia page about parsnip talking about etymology of name and word

Screenshot of Google summary about the tech company donuts

Google translate screen that reads in Polish czy mogę mówić gazowana o wina and in English Can I talk about sparkling wine?

Screenshot of text that reads What are all fruit names?

Photo of red flowers in red planter boxes in a window

Photo of a tiny the most perfect maybe 1960s white car facing with its nose right in between two new silver cars with their noses facing left. Me against the world.

Photo in Błonia field (Pole Błonia?) showing a human-made? natural path (bent reeds and grass) cut through the grass

Photo in Błonia field (Pole Błonia?) looking towards Stare Miasto

Photo of my new rower, Dutch style, black, with basket

Mirror selfie in blue and white check button up skirt and black mini skirt, kind of body con

Photobooth selfie on my dark blue couch in dark blue hoodie

Screenshot from my documentary titled Ludwinów showing a moth flying up from the sidewalk and two yellow subtitles saying Ludwinów

Photo of Gaudí's garden in Barcelona

Google translate screen showing it's cute without being sweet in English and to jest słodkie bez bycia słodkim

Google translate screen showing it is cute without being cutesy in English and to jest słodkie bez bycia słodkim

Bunches of dried roses hanging upside down in the green rafters of Plac na Stawach

Screenshot of Wikipedia page about Kamchatka berry

Photo of my bowl of yogurt, granola and berries with flash

Photo of my bowl of yogurt, granola and berries in natural light

Polish and English Google translate split screen showing poziomka in Polish and wild strawberry in English

Polish and English Google translate split screen showing borówke łamczatka in Polish and blueberry squirrel in English

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that shows the movements and titles/times of Symphonie déchirée

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads Autobiography No 18, shows a drawing of a nude woman shown from behind sitting on her knees with her arms outstretched on gridded paper, and below March 15, 1994

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads Then I started playing concerts, which required writing autobiographical notes. I started writing transgressive statements spontaneously. I would talk in the first person, which you weren't supposed to do; I would falsify dates and places; I would invest a life for myself in which, under the cover of casualness and irreverence, I would express my thoughts on society. That's how I came to write inaccurate autobiographies.

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about being anti-dogma as a transgressive stance

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about a piece titled Duality, overlapping monologues, incompatible discourses

Person on street carrying a big package wearing army camo pants with a really long ruler sticking out of one pocket on thigh, somehow not falling out, but almost parallel to sidewalk

A glass door bordered in green with a bright orange square handle

Bottom of a plate at my house branded AMBIENTE

Photobooth selfie I took for my new job

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads What is interesting, I wouldn't say beautiful, but what is interesting about a car passing in the street is the way it describes the house. If we...

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads The play of time and space follows the logical of The Golden Ass by Apuleius: a story linked to another story which contains a story itself linked to yet another story and so forth, so that we lose track of who does what and who is who. It's a different, labyrinthine way of using the autobiography as a medium.

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about the puritanical nature of rigor, irrelevance of form, how he reacted against rigor and purity of form early in his career. Some of it reads One can remain unstable on a step and attempt imbalance, that's experimental.

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about the unfolding of pleasure, the instantaneousness of desire, suddenness and continuity, duality. The last sentence reads The very essence of life is denied precisely by the social, crushed by the play of power. In this multifaceted taboo, pleasure is reflected as an image of triviality.

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads So I wrote different diamond-shaped modes and drew an extremely precise plan according to rules I forgot. But it worked. In fact, it's...

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads ...two; perhaps in a violent way. If I were to let my feelings take over, I would say that I feel at the same time a great desire to live and anger in the face of barbarity. Rebellion, anger, pleasure, softness: what a bitter balancing act, what a loss of balance to the point of risking a fall into despair.

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about his desire to distance himself from projects when he has reached a degree of success, to stay free, not take oneself too seriously

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads ...period of abstraction. I've always thought the point of creation lies in the meeting of ideas that are not necessarily related, because these contradictions bring about difficulties through which you have to find your way

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads life was governed by the rhythm of storms,

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads as a non-critical and openly subjective observer of the fabric of everyday life

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads These interstices are more or less used in loops; the loop itself being a machinic cliché as well as a catalyst

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads April 28, I need 10 words per CD, which means approximately one word ever 7 minutes

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari about his series made in the American Southwest, sparseness, filling up at a gas station when you see it because there might not be another one for a long time, the same with eating when you see a restaurant, ends with the sentence many memorable sandwiches

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads the point, since I don't know what I am, notions of finite, infinite or incompleteness have for me faded into the past

From Wim Wenders's Notebook on Cities and Clothes (1989), a model in Yohji's studio wears a white layered dress with slits at the front to put your hands in

Shot of a tower and vine-covered wall in Wawel

Carpet in Cathedral in Wawel

Kraków skyline pictured through grates in bell tower in Wawel

Wooden stairs pictured looking down in Wawel, with me sticking out my leg, wearing black shoe

Wooden stairs pictured looking down in Wawel

Information sign about one of the bells in Wawel

Information sign about one of the bells in Wawel

Information sign about one of the bells in Wawel

Bell in Wawel

Stairs leading up to the bell tower in Wawel

Information sign about one of the bells in Wawel

Mirinda 1L listed on an outdoor menu at a pizza restaurant

Wine tasting notes for Winnica Wieliczka Jantar Eko that reads character calm

Text fragment from Niceshop Su email that reads Niceshop Su is over, Niceshop Su is bold, over is italicized

Clothing I got off Vinted wrapped in pink, green and black tissue papers on the floor in a pile

Car in Ludwinów with yellow boot hatch and handprint

Balcony in Ludwinów with opening covered in green mesh fabric for the bugs

Blurry photo I took in Ludwinów with big orange bit and some green behind

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Screenshot of my Photos app on iPhone showing all the photos and videos I took in Ludwinów

Wide apartment block in Ludwinów, Kraków with lime green accents

Tall apartment block in Ludwinów, Kraków with yellow balconies

Tall apartment block in Ludwinów, Kraków with yellow balconies

Baby pink flowers, large, open, in a garden

Full length mirror selfie in black linen summer dress

The text theoretical peak in white on black background, repeated two times

Photo of my temporary apt in Salwator before I got my current one, showing light pouring into an open kitchen

Photo of a sign that reads Cracow COMPUTER Museum in 8-bit text with two kind of clip art dragon heads flanking an illustration of a computer screen

Photo of a square building column in Kraków that has a blue address sign reading STRADOMSKA 18 and below a line of letters in pink, purple, blue, cyan, green and yellow that spell serwis

Mirror selfie in a blue and white cotton vintage perfect night gown i thrifted

Photo of a tote bag I hand embellished for Filip with grey and blue and yellow thread that reads pływ in the bottom corner

Close up of a tote bag I hand embellished for Filip with grey and blue and yellow thread that reads pływ in the bottom corner

Photo of a glass window that has grey text written Gossip Cafe

Selfie in my new room after signing my lease

A close up on a pink sign with white text and a bit of it that reads Natalia

Screenshot of text fragment that reads date. Sorry for the incompetence!

Screenshot of text fragment that reads various aspects of piano literature

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari thats archival photo of Ferrari and dancer Anne-Marie Renaud, caption reads 1990: Luc Ferrari during a rehearsal of <em>Solitude Transit</em>, choreography by Anne-Marie Renaud

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari that reads silent tunnels, aggressive snails

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari talking about seduction and the game of desire

Screenshot from pdf scan of book almost nothing with Luc Ferrari talking about Pierre Henry's break with Pierre Schaeffer

Screenshot of Berlin Google maps showing Christian's neighbourhood of the Bavarian Quarter highlighted

Photo of highlighted text on my kindle showing a section from Eliot Weinberger's Angels and Saints talking about the 7 aspects of the seven-headed dragon of revelation

Photo of logo on a piece of black and white paper that reads Eye Cue Vision Technologies with their mascot being a cute illustration of an eye on stick legs

Photo of jewelry store sign that reads Diamond Sky in gold text on frosted glass. A partial image of a gaudy gold ring can be seen in the window

Screenshot of text fragment that reads Anna on the neck Markon the arm, typo intentional

Screenshot from Yohji Yamamoto's Pour Homme Printemps-Ete 2000 show, showing two models in suits facing off, one holding a bra

Screenshot from Yohji Yamamoto's Pour Homme Printemps-Ete 2000 show, showing beige look of boots, tunic and jacket

Photobooth selfie showing the Madalyn Merkey patch I cut off of a polo and have tacked to my white turtleneck

Screenshot from Google chat window that reads Ari is inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting Topic: Ari Panzer's Personal Meeting Room

Photobooth bust selfie showing my new blouse with red roses on it

Screenshot bush of pink flowers from Zouzou music video

Screenshot of title of Google Drive file that reads Level Five_Chris Market_1997.srt

Screenshot of Google translate Polish to English showing in Polish bo że wtedy kwitną i nawet przekwitają, dojrzewają and in English because then they bloom and even fade, they mature

Screenshot of Google translate Polish to English showing słonecznik and sunflower, with some images of sunflowers below

Selfie in inside-out cream Commes des Garçons slip, tags out

screenshot of text fragment that reads ambient romantics

Screenshot of brutaż's Facebook page where they uploaded a screenshot of mine from an excercise from my Polish workbook with the title [od a-psik]

Archival photo of Schaff's restaurant

Screenshot of my lifepath #9 outlining my forthcoming adventures and my need to stop being so delusional

Screenshot of my iMessages on computer showing first three messages from +48, +44 and +49

Birds-eye photo of table with a bunch of Miron's books laid out, recently purchased

Birds-eye photo of table with Miron's Było i Było on the top of a stack of books and a thank you card from the antiquarian bookstore where I bought them from showing that the order was packed by Filip

Poster for play showing crew members with Muzyka attributed to Filip Grzeszczuk

Accidental blurry flash pic of a wooden floor, a tiny blue spot or triangle visible, because we're at the theatre

Photobooth selfie in black mesh top and black velour corset

Screenshot from Polish language game quiz site that reads Congratulations, you've learned everything

Picture of text highlighted on my kindle from Eliot Weinberger's essay China's Golden Age that reads He was a Crazy Poet—the Chinese refer to him as the ghostly genius—who rode his donkey all day and wrote scattered lines that he tossed into a bag. At night, he emptied out the bag and put the lines together as poems, which he threw in another bag and forgot

Big orange fitted sheet, green towel and white face towel drying on clothes horse in the living room

Mirror selfie from I think October 2017 wearing gauzy golden beige top and golden sheer mini dress

Screenshot from 1-800-floral website thanking me for using their digital service and showing how I can view the sent bouquet email by inputting the code 518-677natalia.panzer

Screenshot of text fragment that reads Notice how it looks like the imperfective present tense? This is one of many reasons why Polish is confusing!

Screenshot of text fragment from job listing that reads INFINITY School, ul. Stork 6 (Prądnik Biały), 3rd floor, a round log

Screenshot from Learning Apps website that shows black text in a white box on a yellow background that reads Świetnie! Gratulacje :)

Photo of sign above restaurant that shows Medieval kind of waiters carrying platters of chicken, fish, lobster, a pig

Photo of grey panties hanging in window of shop that have a bee icon in top right-hand corner with xs for eyes and text that reads bees

Screenshot from English grammar blog that reads Examples: The table is wooden. She wore a cotton dress

Screenshot from 1800 flowers that reads Friends and Cool Sites Try Philip's 1-800-Florals Virtual Flowers site Send flowers today!

Screenshot of Polish Word of the Day from Transparent Language email newsletter, cierpieć: to suffer. Example sentence: Ona cierpi w ciszy. Sentence meaning: She suffers in silence.

Photo of beautifully evocative spray paint fragment on wall, a maroon red downward swoosh, like a wing, with a lime green dot near the top

Photo of children's book in a window display titled Słoneczne Jajo, translates as The Sun Egg, showing a tiny girl with orange hair standing next to a lemon-sized orange fruit

Photo of lavendar spray paint tag that reads BABY

Photo of glass-cased message board outside a building, perhaps religious, shows a nun hanging up washing? with red rose pictures scattered about, a dove, red teardrops falling, blood

Photo of a maroon car covered in flower decals

Photo of a sign above a candy shop that reads in translation The Smallest Candy Manufacture Worldwide

Photo of a sign outside of a florist's shop advertising that they do ikebana, ikebany in Polish

Photo of a small white sapling kind of tree illuminated in sun at the back of my current apartment, kamienica

Screenshot of Clayton Eshlemnan's translation of Vallejo's poem that begins the grown ups...

Tree outside my apartment, trunk pictured with vines creeping up, a patch of light illuminating middle of trunk and vines. Building and blue sky in background

Shoes, glasses, towels, clothing, backpack, water bottle arranged on rocks

Screenshot of Brecks flowers page for Cool Blue Bearded Iris Mixture that I wrote copy for in 2014 or 2015

Screenshot of part of a job ad that reads High linguistic competence, ease of editing statements written, pen lightness

Photo of a sign that reads SUPREME DAYLIGHT above some Polish text above a picture of what looks like a pottle of face cream

Photo of my foot next to a moth on the sidewalk

Photo of a blue truck with a faded blueish decal on the side showing a front porch of a country house

Selfie of me holding tiny pink bag in mirror of 1 of a Find Vintage when I used to work there

Photo of my open szafa and clothes inside, and my grey trench draped over couch in front

Photo of a golden tub holding dried flowers and foliage on top of my szafa

Photo of display window showing fudge and a sign that reads WE HAVE 42 DIFFERENT KINDS OF FUDGE and a smaller sign beside it that reads MAMY 42 RODZAJE RÓŻNYCH KRÓWEK

Photo of old fashioned business sign on building that reads APTEAKA ANIOŁEM

Photo of business sign called U Babcia Maliny translated as Raspberry Grandmother

Selfie I sent to A of me in bed waving hi

Screenshot of 2 unread text in iMessage one from Anna Blushing that reads love it :') and another from Christian that reads i love them

Photo of a confession both in Cathedral with a white computer printed sign that reads CONFESSION IN ENGLISH

Photo of lumpy stone walkway curving around side of building at Waweł

Photo of lumpy stone walkway at Waweł

Photo of sign hanging on building showing an old Medieval style painting of two figure in partial profile that below reads Tu zobaczysz najstarze malowidło w Polsce translated as See the oldest painting in Poland - right here

Photo of purple sign with yellow text for Dziórawy kocioł Magiczna kawiarnia translated by a purple sign with yellow text underneath that reads Leaky Cauldron Magic coffeeshop and a wooden sign with yellow text below says Magiczny Sklepik

Photo of poster in window of record shop showing Ozzy Osbourne holding up a sign that says Hell, as if he is hitchhiking

Screenshot that says Central European Summer Time

Photo of Wisła taken from Waweł under pochmurno sky

Photo of gloomy field landscape with church and hamlet visible in distance while on PKP Intercity od Warszawa do Krakowa

Photo of field, landscape as it begun to get more hilly, rolling on PKP Intercity od Warszawa do Krakowa

Photo of field, landscape as it begun to get more hilly, rolling on PKP Intercity od Warszawa do Krakowa

Photo of field, landscape as it begun to get more hilly, rolling on PKP Intercity od Warszawa do Krakowa with church in background, very grey gloomy skies, blurry

Na zewnątrz moje nowe mieszkanie w Krakowie, ul. Tenczyńska 4

Screenshot of translation of Miron Białoszewski's Oh! Oh! Should They Take Away My Stove...My Inexhaustible Ode to Joy, the best translation imo, by Andrzej Busza i Bodgan Czaykowski

Screenshot of google search where I typed do moths have feathers

Picture of tree outside my apartment with one tendril branch with green spring leaves illuminated in sunlight

Picture of a young Isabelle Huppert looking 70s and dreamy

Screenshot of subtitle that reads and you always have your own world there, you're always the main character...

Screenshot of subtitle that reads All trees resemble living beings that turn and face you

Screenshot of subtitle that reads What's really hard to discover isn't style, but exceptions

Screenshot of subtitle that reads Only once in a while you came down from the mountains

Text fragment that reads 'A tree-/high thought' from a Paul Celan poem

A set of keys hanging off a tree in Pole Mokotowskie

Picture of a green-grassed hill and surrounding trees, gentle slope, that I rolled down

Screenshot of text from lowtechmagazine that discusses energy usage of online versus offline media

Screenshot of Wikipedia page about À rebours that reads 'writing and embarked on a wild and gloomy fantasy' with 'a wild and gloomy fantasy' highlighted in blue

Screenshot of Wikipedia page that reads Country: France, Language: French, Genre: Decadent

Golden yellow socks for dad, finally done, two months late

Photobooth picture of modeling my new poet's blouse, full of ribbons

Photobooth picture of me at wooden table in a black mesh top holding up my yellow sock knitting a bit blurred coz a bit drunk

Screenshot of my homescreen showing lots of screenshots taken from The Godfather and a small glitch to the left of the screen showing the title of another screenshot but not screenshot

Picture of the Philharmonic house in Szczecin

Screenshot of leather backpack I saw on vinted.pl, a metallic plate on front of bag reads 'Active Lifestyle, CASUAL, Paris, Rome, New York'

Screenshot of text taken from YouTube video of performance of Chopin's 'Mazurka No. 25 in B Minor, Op. 33 No. 4 - Mesto (II)' that reads *Mazurka in B minor op.33 no.4: Chopin's tempo is mesto

Screenshot of text about Ervin Nyíregyhàzi that reads 'There are no proper recordings of him in his prime. He was only recorded later when he hadn't owned a piano or practiced properly in 40 years and he was usually very drunk. Kevin Bazzana released a book about his remarkable life (he had ten wives before his death, one of whom tried to murder him and one of whom was the mother of a previous wife), called 'Lost Genius'.'

Screenshot from BBC's The Secret History of Writing showing a bit of an illuminated manuscript, I have circled the word 'angelos' or 'angelus' in a red heart in preview

Screenshot from BBC's The Secret History of Writing showing a quill writing with ink on parchment, having just written an n

Screenshot from BBC's The Secret History of Writing showing a hand pointing at a translucent piece of parchment

Screenshot of hat from Met costume collection showing a 1957 House of Balenciaga cloche hat that looks made out of lettuce or cabbage

Screenshot of texts from Angelo that reads 'I think those forces of desire ultimately have to align/though the form of how that alignment looks will probably surprise you and appear naturally/I think the recipe is holding the vision strongly at every moment but also counter-intuitively remaining flexible to it manifesting in surprising ways'

Iconic Max Vadakul photo from Yohji Yamamoto 90s campgain showing model hovering behind a man on the street

Selfie of me from neck to waist showing my new angora top with keyhole opening and buttons'

from Met Museum's costume archive text that reads 'Girl Seeks Girl. fall/winter 2018-2019, edition 2021, Thebe Magugu'

Text from Alexander McQueen wiki that reads 'There is a claim that skin grown using the DNA of the late designer has been turned into leather. This.'

Yellow daffodils in a jar on a chest of drawers in my temporary apartment

Photo Alix sent me of purple and white raindrop-splattered crocuses in a garden

Purple flowers sprouting because it is spring

Picture of the 7 wine bottles I bought, photo blurred because I had water on my camera lens

Photo of my wearing the leather sneakers I dyed, which were previously light brown but are now black, pictured on a grey brick street, facing down, wearing white socks black pants, like a waiter

Photo of me holding up the detached back of a Filipa K distressed blazer

Text scrap that reads 'Moss + Lichen fog into space'

Archival photo showing aerial view of the Polish city of Chełmno

Photo of fountain and red flowers planted in hearts in a park in the Polish city of Chełmno

Photo of a simple hotel room in the Polish city of Chełmno

Screenshot of Google maps map showing Warsaw, Berlin, with the border post in between them circled in squiggly yellow lines and the Polish town of Stargard also circled in squiggly yellow lines

Screenshot from Alice Wu's 2004 film Saving Face showing Wil's mother in a wedding dress sitting on the back seet of the bus with red roses in her hair

Photo taken of first day of spring showing a person in a lime green jacket leaning in the door of their exactly the same kind of green coloured car

Photo of old diary entry that reads 'Angelina has so many photos no one sees'

Text taken from Christian Oldham newsletter that reads 'I am there, I know that the other exists, I can be with the other, and I can be without the other, but I know that they exist. I can come back to the other, and I am charmed by the other. It's 'ravishing.'

Picture of a navy blue with white polka dot accent dress lying on my wood floor

Archival photo of exhibition When Attitudes Become Form at Kunsthalle Bern, 1969

Photo of text on kindle, written by Sol Lewitt to Eva Hesse, encouraging her to make art without doubt

Old full length mirror selfie of me in black velvet mini dress

Photo from A showing a rainbow over a lavender apartment building

Text scrap that reads 'Cirzpisława comes from the Polish 'cierpieć, or 'to suffer.'

Highlighted text scrap that reads 'The sculptor Lorenzo Ghiberti had laboured for fifty years to create the bronze doors of the Baptistry,'

Photobooth picture of me modeling a black rockabilly dress

Photobooth picture of me modeling a black rockabilly dress, front the back

Screenshot of four recent sent emails, addressee name only, reads from top to bottom 'To :fru 14', 'To: Christian 9', 'To: Sammie 2', 'To: violet, Lynn...6'

Picture of my old diary and handwritten in pencil 'Johanna likes to walk around in the night'

Birds eye picture of my table with two mostly empty glasses and four deviled eggs I made

Screenshot from my Polish word of the day email that reads 'Kiedy się z nim spotykałam, zawsze przynosił mi kwiaty.' and 'When I used to see him, he always brought me flowers.'

Selfie taken on Photobooth of me sitting at desk wearing a white turtleneck, white button up shirt, and sheer mesh white lynn branded top

Screengrab of Los Angeles driving cam of a car going down a palm-tree lined avenue under blue sky, from driveandlisten.herokuapp.com

Screenshot of vinted.pl user 1natalia7's username

Screen grab of plain html text website titled 'black leather dye for shoes' and a dense full page paragraph of text below

Screenshot of English/Polish Google Translate screen. On the left in English 'heart-wall', on the right in Polish 'ściana serca'

Archival image of Éliane Radigue sitting at modular synth with back turned to camera, many layers in the photo to make some parts more transparent that others, her image is partially transparent, she wears a large black bow in her hair to hold her pony tail

Screenshot of Google showing suggested soups with icons and soup names from when I was searching a particular kind of soup

Picture of Elodie Lauten's cassette tape 'The Death of Don Juan'

Archival image of Elodie Lauten sitting at piano in elaborate headdress/veil and outfit

Screenshot of text written by Elodie Lauten about her time working and composing in New York City

Picture of a section of text highlighted on my kindle from Clarice Lispector's 'Hour of the Star'

Picture of a section of text highlighted on my kindle from Clarice Lispector's 'Hour of the Star'

Picture of a section of text highlighted on my kindle from Clarice Lispector's 'Hour of the Star'

Two elderly women both in felt hats, one olive green, one dark coral, and heavy vintage brown overcoats are pictured from behind in the street in Warsaw

Screenshot from Soundcloud showing my small round profile icon and the text 'Made for Natalia'

Photobooth picture of me in profile trying to photograph wearing inside out black pants

Picture of Julius Eastman on a grassy bank beside a pond playing a violin while a person with back turned to camera stands directly in front of him. Closer to the pond, someone is painting a large, human-sized canvas en plein air. Some other people are milling around the pond, standing there, or sitting with a guitar

Julius Eastman 'Fugue 01' score - on white notation paper the text 'Julius Eastman Fugue No 01 December 12/8/83' written in calligrpahic text. Along lefthand margin of page the text 'If he loves you he will stay with you' is wrriten

Julius Eastman score - on white notation paper divided by ten horizontal lines predominantly A and B notes are written, repeated

Julius Eastman 'Colors' score - on sepia notation paper musical notes are accented with yellow, blue and red pencil strokes

Photo by James Marrs of five new Laura Lies In tapes for album JM2020 arranged on a taupe carpet

Old fresco painting showing snakes, a figure clothes in what looks like a cloak of pomegranates or tomatoes, holding a staff, a mountain, birds

Screenshot of glitch in my side bar on Mac homescreen, the preview Icon is present but the sample view of the document that is open in Preview is clipped so only the top left part is showing. This is pictured over a light pink background

Screenshot of two Polish-English Google translate screens on my phone. One reads 'serdecznie' / heartily', another reads 'w podworzy serwaru' / 'in the server yard'

Photo taken of the outside of my apartment building showing a trail of yellow: a yellow paint scrap on the wall, yellow boards or curtains put up in someone's window and a yellow metal hatch labeled 'GAZ' attached to the wall

Photo of the windows in my window open at night

Photo of my bathroom, on the righthand side the door frame takes up 3/5 of the photo, in the remainder can see the mirror with a reflection of white globe wall light in kitchen

Up close picture of my apartment frosted glass window from the outside, a lamp blurred, glowing in the window

My apartment pictured from the outside entrance walk, with a lamp on in one window

Screenshot of a fragment of a YouTube comment on video for Clark Coolidge's 'Polaroid' that reads 'But hearing him read it here opens the whole thing up. If you speak it conversationally, as you would a lot of normal free verse, all kinds of sense are sly hinted at and it's full of music'

Screen grab while watching Anne Linsel's documentary 'Pina Bausch' on YouTube (minimized size, not full screen), subtitles read 'i like to be here i find it important for our work as i know that in one' on top of a frame showing Wuppertal's suspended railway, a McDonald's, a car driving by, dusk

Screen grab while watching Anne Linsel's documentary 'Pina Bausch' on YouTube (minimized size, not full screen), subtitles read 'town am somehow a workshop is not held on Sundays' on top of a frame showing Wuppertal's suspended railway, a McDonald's, a car driving by, dusk

Screenshot from Anne Linsel's documentary 'Pina Bausch', subtitles read 'thought I wanted to think I didn't understand what I was actually talking about' on top of a frame showing Pina from chest up in partial profile

Screenshot of a fragment of my Google Chrome tabs, tab reads 'celes' next to the YouTube icon

Screenshot of Frank O'Hara's poem 'For Grace, After A Party'

Screenshot of text fragment that reads 'walnuts, oils that are liquid at room temperature'

Google Image search results for 'serge', sample tile

Screenshot from Hong Kong Community radio audio widget that shows HKCR logo, play button, and text that reads 'UP NEXT: Lynn'

Screenshot for Twitch that reads 'We don't know much about them, but we're sure philipfm is great'

Pink Camper Kobarah sandals, screenshot from APOC Instagram

The word 'love' drawn loopy inside a heart in the snow of a car window, two handprints on either side

Picture of atrium on Marszałkowska with snow-covered steps

Screenshot of scent notes for Luigi Borrelli's scent Cashmere from https://www.fragrantica.com/. The list is organized as a stacked bar graph, with each line having a different background colour. The longest line is at the top of the stack, to show the most prominent scent, and then the lines below are shorter to indicate their supporting role. In descending order the graph reads amber with maroon background, woody with brown background, musky with lilac background, smoky with purple-taupe background, earthy with green-taupe background, fresh spicy with light green background, aromatic with cyan-taupe background, balsamic with light brown background, warm spicy with warm orange background, citrus with light yellow background

Screenshot of text fragment that reads 'Dwarfs in the Wet West,' in black times new roman

Screenshot of text fragment on green background that reads 'Woolen or nettles, or ducks versus swans' in black times new roman

Screenshot of text fragment on blue background that reads 'A dusty path runs across the sky,' dark blue times new roman italics

Screenshot of Theodor Kittelsen painting showing princess collection woolen down

Screenshot for culture.pl article about the history of tea in Poland that reads 'In 1915, the Municipal Board of the Capital City of Lviv issued a proclamation on woodland strawberry leaves that could be used as ersatz tea for the army; a detailed instruction how such leaves should be dried was included since the import of tea, 'a drink much desirable, in particular for the soldiers', was limited. The authorities appealed to the people known for their patriotism, especially to schoolchildren, to collect woodland strawberry leaves for the soldiers.'

Screenshot for culture.pl article about the history of tea in Poland that reads 'how to preserve tea: 'in order to prevent its loss of flavour, tea should be kept on fresh hay [...] as the smell of hard liquors, spices, oil, soap,'

Screenshot of Google Chrome search history term that reads 'glowing christ came to kingdom on the earth fire of gods love he brought to man lyrics'

Screenshot of Polish-English google translate widget that reads 'jeż na nartach' in Polish and 'hedgehog skiing' in English

Image of large Polish świdermajer style house

Screenshot of my whole screen while listening to yyed's Annexia mix on Soundcloud

Screenshot of comment posted somewhere (YouTube? Twitch?) that reads '<3 twin bed women make the world go round <3'

Photo of a display of old-fashioned shoes pictured through window of shoe repair shop

Screenshot from article about vegetarianism in pre-War Poland that reads 'While the serene atmosphere of the rural mansion awaited his patients, they also had to submit to some strict rules: move more, eat less, and 'control yourself' ('<em>władaj sobą</em>') - as a sign on the entrance stated. There was no medicine at the resort, since Tarnawski believed good health could be achieved strictly through regular exercise, working in the garden, sunbathing naked, running on the grass at dawn, bathing in a cold stream, as well as receiving massages, fasting and - obviously - sticking to a vegetarian diet based on local ingredients.'

Screenshot from article about vegetarianism in pre-War Poland that show people standing in a poppy field with caption 'Patients at poppy seed field'

Screenshot from article about vegetarianism in pre-War Poland that reads 'First published in Świt, a regional oil industry journal, and concealed in an archive'

A bouquet of yellow immortelle flowers, stock photo style

Image of a semi-sheer black tank top that has text 'My only friend' printed on front in white caps text. Top is laid out on a couch or sofa chair with black and white houndstooth pattern

Decal on bar window that reads 'We are not angels. But you can be!' in arched white text above two large white angel wings

Selfie in mirror with my arm held up showing the delicate cuff of my new blood-red merino sweater

Slice of lemon in a glass of water, glass on a wooden table with other furniture in the background

Jean Genet's natal chart

Blue jeans with three heart-shapred cut outs on right leg, on thigh, knee and upper shin

Screenshot of text from vinted.pl that reads 'ENJOY CASUAL LIFE' in aqua text

Screenshot of text from vinted.pl that reads 'very dark navy blue falling into black'

Twelve crocheted red-topped button mushrooms lined up in a box filled with green thin fabric or stringy twine to mimic grass, pictured from above

Screenshot from video about Patrick Desplats showing the opening of a vat of red wine in the ground

Screenshot from video about Patrick Desplats showing him holding up a glass of pinkish-orangish wine in the light

Screenshot of row of feathers that popped up after searching feathers in Google translate

Chart explaining Saussure's sign, signifier, signified

Screenshot from Wikipedia about mugwort uses in Middle Ages Europe and the bible

Screenshot from Wikipedia about how Germans use mugwort to season goose

Baby red panda curled up half on its back on a green background

Low branch hanging over frozen pond, some of the branch been trapped under the ice

Aged tan buildings on my street, slightly blurred under grey sky, late afternoon

Screenshot of digital workbook from my Polish language class, showing the type of school project where you have to connect two columns of words with arrows. It was done in Preview and the arrows are huge and partially obscuring the text

Books seen through the window of an antiquarian bookstore

Screenshot from Twitch of my Followed Channels widget. philipfm is online, my_color_story is offline

Screenshot of FaceTime conversation with Alix on my laptop, she has left and her screen shows interior of her home

Google translate screen showing 'Love at first sight' in English and German

Screenshot of my Zoom language class while we are all on break (cameras off) layered on top of WhatsApp desktop screen layered on top of pdf from my language course with lessons about food

Selfie in a top I knitted

Screenshot of Google translate screens from Polish to English

Screenshot of my Downloads folder overlaid with multiple 'Track Info' pop-up screens with metadata from Violet's new tracks

Photobooth photo of me wearing my white and purple-flower fleece robe leaning away from the camera in partial-profile while talking on my iPhone

Screenshot of Google result that reads 'What year is the next generation'

Screenshot of ominous email fragment that reads 'There are 3 days to make the money transfer'

Picture of El Jadida cistern

Picture of a tree that looks like a T-rex head in profile, seen at night through slightly parted curtains

Screenshot of story from haleyalanirainwood Instagram that reads 'December 16th Source Message: Your most difficult moments weren't for nothing. Being taken advantage of taught you to value yourself more. Being disrespected taught you to express yourself more. The instability taught you that peace was one of your primary desires. You can heal while keeping the growth that was spawned through your past. You're in the process of creating an entirely new life now, and embracing all that got you here is an undeniable awareness of strength'

Selfie showing my knit top with both arms finished

Selfie showing my knit top with both arms finished

Selfie showing my knit top with one arm finished

Selfie in Nisyros

Two small icon paintings hung on wall beside a bundle of dried leaves in a Greek country church

A very faded painting behind a small vase of dried thyme in a Greek country church

Selfie in mirror on night I told Jaclyn I liked her, and we kissed

Selfie in mirror, 2018

A worn icon painting behind a small vase of dried thyme in a Greek country church

Inside of a Greek country church showing fresco on the side of an alcove

Screenshot of edited job posting that reads 'I am looking for a cook or a lover'

Photo of a page from Eva Hesse's diaries where the opening line 'endless repetition can be considered erotic.' is underlined with a few red squiggles I drew in Preview

Screenshot of Polish-English Google translate window that reads 'niewyspana/sleepless'

Fragment of text from my cartography chart that reads '...private life. If you are balanced, honest, and not entirely ego-driven, you have the required strength to achieve your goals'

Fragment of text from my cartography chart that opens 'The more flexible you are, the easier this change will be'

Text from my mother saying 'Just remember to keep your heart chakra open: love, honesty, compassion, kindness, acceptance, forgiveness...and other good stuff'

Screenshot from Duolino saying 'I need a woman'

Photo of red plant over glass dome at Warsaw University library rooftop garden

Screenshot of my cosmic rx natal chart

Screenshot from Duolingo saying 'I think about you all the time' in Polish and English

Screenshot from Duolingo saying 'I often think about you' in Polish and English

Screenshot from Duolingo saying 'I do not know anything about you' in Polish and English

Screenshot of credits from 'Toute une nuit' saying 'Natalia Akerman'

Robert Altman's natal chart

Ebay watch categories reads 'Portable Audio and Headphones', 'Specialty', 'Militaria'

Erik Satie's natal chart

Photo of Suzanne Valadon's studio

Photo of Suzanne Valadon's studio

Letter I wrote on computer as child complaining about public buses

Drawing I made from my brother as a child

Panda lying belly down on a tree branch

Screenshot of computer screen showing time at 11:11 and 11 unread email messages

Nalgene bottle pictured on Lycabettus Hill in Athens

Google translate screenshot showing 'mountain cloud mountain' in English and Italian

Heart-shaped leaf on a tree in winter

Stevie Nicks

Two ballerina themed earrings on a black background

Portrait of folk musician playing what looks like a lap guitar

Screenshot of me interacting with Mel Nguyen's website homepage

Photo of spiderweb made inside of a leaf

A cartoon depiction of scene from 'Casablanca' showing sad unicorn and downcast figure in greyscale

Photo of blue coffee cup on metal saucer with glasso f water on light wood tableLooking down into white coffee cup on brown table, with coffee dregs

Scan of handwritten poem 'Prayer' by Jean-Michel Basquiat

Photo by K of me running down old stoop at night with fairy lights all around

Screenshot of text that reads 'Sent with gentle effect'

Screenshot from SoundCloud saying '$ Support c-'

Screenshot of an old photo showing an old Greek wedding

An 8 x 2 table. One row titled 'Air' with numerical values. One row titled 'Sea' with numerical values'

Front of dress ca. 1895, Sörmland Museum, via The Dreamstress blog

Back of dress ca. 1895, Sörmland Museum, via The Dreamstress blog

Screenshot of FaceTime conversation with V

Screenshot of Gmail glitch where all profile icons, subject line are smooshed at the left hand of the screen, most of the screen is white

Screenshot of Chantal Akerman's natal chart

Old picture of Amy, my favourite, showing her with vinyl or black paint up to her elbows and short black hair

Screenshot of Anna's old website, showing a digital portrait

Mac screenshot of FaceTime conversation with A, on A's side the screen shows her kitchen ceiling

Mac screenshot of FaceTime conversation with A, on A's side the screen shows her dinner hotdog

Mac screenshot of FaceTime conversation with A, on A's side the screen shows my delayed reflection in her kitchen window. On my side, a YouTube screen video reads

Photo of a projected screen showing me and F in Lubov, on call with J.O.

Photo of a projected screen showing me and F in Lubov, on call with J.O.

Photo of a projected screen showing me and F in Lubov, on call with J.O.

Picture of J.O. projected on screen

Photo of a projected screen showing me and F in Lubov, on call with J.O., who is large

My portrait by emamouse

kind of my, mine, home